Putting my money where the fat is!
It isn’t any secret that once you have a baby, your body changes shape and size. Our body did something incredible and every inch of it reflects the story of what happened to it.
The stretching of our bellies, the skin that changed during that process, the extra padding to support the baby…all of it. And still, there are some women who didn’t get the brunt of the baby body business. You won’t find me over here being a hater about that because, girl, you are blessed if your baby-growing- baby-giving body didn’t get wrecked! I ain’t mad at ya. As for me, I’m in the other camp with the moms who stand in the mirror and are like, “What happened?”
For me though this body thing was a process that started a lot sooner than before I got pregnant. Dating, then marriage, and everything in between and after — those were years of things that helped me become so much more lax. I was never a stress eater until later in my life. I actually had a very strong paleo lifestyle and looked fantastic before all that. This was me….
Ok. So I’m being real here. I know I’m a beautiful woman and so much more. But I’m not going to spin some lies about how my outside doesn’t matter to me. By the time I got pregnant I was far from this body. THIS body wasn’t even at “ideal” weight and I loved it. THIS body was just where I personally needed to be and I was stoked. I hadn’t looked like this before ever in my life and it was thrilling. I was featured in a book and a magazine focused on paleo, which celebrated this glorious time for me. Short background: I had been diagnosed with Hashimoto’s Thyroiditis and turned to a paleo lifestyle as a healing avenue. I worked out regularly, I ate pretty clean, and I focused on just my body because it needed healing. Everything I did must have done the trick as I currently still have great bloodwork, even after everything that followed after my descend from this photo. Liver, kidneys, hormones, thyroid — all of it. So I’m not in horrible health. Thing is though, I’m not where I KNOW I can be. This brings me to the below photo….
Most people would just say, “Wow, that’s me with Serena Wiliams!” Me? I’m like, “Wow, I sure look big in this photo!” Yes, interviewing Serena Williams was a highlight of my writing career. Soooo, like why don’t I focus on that?! Of course I was thrilled to take this photo. And of course I couldn’t wait to post it, in theory. But….I’m very much about body positivity. Body shaming is not my thing. But for ME this isn’t going to work. I know my potential and I’ve been successful — especially now! I birthed life, ya’ll! This body has done magical things!
I’ve recently been completely inspired by a wonderful friend who has transformed her body in the past few months focusing on the clean eating, intermittent fasting and movement that I honed in on many years ago. And although I know the avenue to my future success isn’t going to be exactly the same as before, I’m taking this challenge head on by putting skin in the game by joining HealthyWage. I’ve already lost five pounds since the above photo. Slow and steady. Slow and steady. Something about money being at stake has become a major motivator when you have to buy diapers!
I’m being more mindful about how much is on my plate. Seems like motherhood made me very complacent about portion control. I never worried about it before but I’m not working out as heavily as I was other than running after Miah, which I know helps with my activity levels. Especially once it warms up around here so we can be outside, getting our Vitamin D in the sunshine and giggling as we run after each other. She is increasingly busy now that she’s older so I expect even more opportunity to get active. In addition, WHAT is on my plate is the simplest of all. I have no idea where this new woman came from that KNEW that Sunday donuts wasn’t a good idea, but did it anyway.
One thing for sure is accountability is high when it comes to something like waging a bet against yourself. I DON’T WAN’T TO LOSE. I have potentially over $300 I stand to win if I reach my goal of losing 40 pounds by July. I set my own timing and my wager so there wasn’t any more pressure than I will allow. I also love how when you are in the HealthyWager app, there is a newsfeed of people posting their accomplishments and need for support from all over the nation and they encourage you as you encourage them. It’s one thing when friends cheer you on, but when you are in a place where everyone is doing something to an end just like you are, it’s really cool to support each other just based on your collective goal.
I’ll keep you posted on my success. I plan not to fail. And if you are so inclined, join me!